that was a really great post, e sort .

boobop - my best friend when i was 17 told me she was in love with me. i had never considered her in that way. but whatever, a year later and we dated. it lasted 5 years. she's now dating other women, i'm back to guys.

if you think you love your friend in a sexual way, then maybe you should tell her. i dont think things will be awkward. i mean - they might be at first, if you expect an immediate response. maybe just let her know (write her a letter?) and let her take her own time in getting back to you. i doubt she will push you away. so long as you are cool with her being like "thanks, but no way" then i dont think there would be a problem.