i don't know if i'm making a bigger deal out of things than they really are. just hoping someone could give me some feedback - i dont want to tell this to my pdoc and have him think i'm crazy, (lol).

i've been pretty stressed lately, and whenever i get stressed i start seeing things. flitting around in my peripheral vision. i think they are bugs and cockroaches, until i look at them properly and realise nothing is there. this last happened for about two weeks back in october when i was stressed out.

last week i was hearing things. big cracks of electricity. originally it came from the power board in my room, but eventually it settled inside my head and wouldnt stop. i guess i also 'saw' flashes of light, but my eyes were closed so i dont know what was going on there. with the hearing stuff - once when i was 16 this voice came to me from the floor. it just said hello and wanted to talk. i got really scared and told it (telepathically) to go away. it was very respectful and didnt talk to me again, but it sat there the whole night watching me with its friends.

i also used to hear lots of people inside my head. they would have conversations with each other, never with me. about mundane stuff like - how's the carpentry going? do you need more wood? here's the hammer etc.

these 'bouts' of 'whatever' usually don't last very long. maybe 1-2weeks at the most. although the voices in my head lasted maybe a month or two, but they didnt bother me because they didnt want to talk to me. i dont think they even realised i was there.

i guess what got me thinking about this was that last week i was pretty depressed, and i became convinced that people were coming to my house to take me away. or if i went shopping that they would be spying on me, making sure i kept safe or they would lock me up and stuff. it feels pretty crazy now but at the time i was convinced. but maybe it isn't crazy, because my T did send a team to my house to check if i was ok?

i dont know. this stuff is all pretty low key, i guess. nothing that has really stressed me out or anything - apart from the scary voice at 16. is this something i should be telling my pdoc about? or if it doesn't bother me is it not worth worrying about? i feel like if i say something about it, it will become a bigger deal than it really is.

sorry if i'm blowing things out of proportion. i thought it was safer to look stupid here than it was in front of my pdoc though.