I just don't understand what the world is coming to, seriously.. I don't get the amount of kidnaps, murders, deaths, rapes etc. Goin on already this year.. 2 deaths near me, a rape (me) and a kidnapping just down the road from me.. It's completely insane.

My sleep's got a little better, i felt so crappy over the first 2 days of taking the medication, the next morning.. But this morning I woke up feeling a little better. I guess I just needed to catch up on all that missed sleep. But, I have a feeling my sleep's going to slip back to none again now. I still can't stop tinking about Sam and about georgie, too.. her brain tumour's got worse and yet.. She still doesn't want to have the operation done.. But the one reason she's having the operation is because she knows I want her to move down here, near me, so i can keep an eye on her and make sure she's ok, be a friend to her and be able to look after her properly. She tell me not to worry, but wouldn't anyone worry about their friend if all these bad things were happening?

She told me that some nights, she wakes up in cold sweats because she's so worried about me.. but she's not got so much to worry about with me as I have with her, which i find strange, but I guess she's just scared that I'm going to sip back down into that deep depression again.. Which I feel is starting to happen and if I'm not careful, everything will start to unravel again.

I guess I just need time to get my own head sorted out and to be there for Georgie and lal the other people that need me, who I can help.. Not people like Charlene, because her problems aren't actual problems, their about guys that she went out with for a day who dumped her because she didn't want to have sex.. i mean yeah anyone would get upset, but seriously? She's a virgin and he knows that and all she had to do was realise that he was a complete tw*t.. I guess I just don't want to have to deal with those minor problems, when there are so many others needing so much more help from me.