thank you for your post, tarabug . i don't know why all of this has caught up with me now... i was 16 eight years ago... so it's been going on for that long at least.

pdoc never asked about it, and i guess it never bothered me enough to tell. i was really hoping (actually, had quite convinced myself) that the response here would be, "oh, that's nothing. delusions/hallucinations are a lot more serious. go away, hypochondriac". so i guess i'm a bit taken aback that ppl think it's something worth mentioning.

thank you for helping me with this. i will tell my pdoc when i see him next. do you think he will be angry that i didn't mention this before? i dont think i "hid" it from him, i just never thought it important enough to mention.