Hi UM,

Although this is an old thread, I just wanted to tell you that I saw a lot of myself in your description.

I just recently self-diagnosed as BPD, and it has been a real eye opener for me. One thing that I realized in reading through outside sources and this board is that there are "degrees" to this disorder. I probably would characterize mine as mild based upon the things that I have read. This could be for a number of reasons, one being that I have been working on myself for 25+ years. I've never taken meds of any kind.

Another thing that I am realizing as I read these boards is that there are areas in my life that definitely need tweaking. I'm not considering therapy again, but just taking steps on my own to think differently. For me, it has always been about awareness and not acting till I figure out where my head is at. One day I will blog about how I do this, as I see this site has a blogging module available.

Thank you again for your post, UM. Reading it and the responses have been helpful.

Melanie