Rapunzel, I am so sorry to read of your upbringing and lack of encouragement. I too can relate to much of what you experienced.
Lately, I've been "connecting the dots" to a lot of such early childhood experiences as they relate to the circumstances in which I found myself as an adult. It's painful stuff to go thru.
In the end, finally coming to terms with it, I am faced with who I am, and where I am in life. I no longer let the past victimize me, as it does no good, for me, or anyone. I fully realize, however, that the limitations placed upon me, both emotionally and professionally, are the result of where I am today.
Love
Patty