What's hard to realize is it isn't YOU specifically they want to abuse. They are sick people and you are so giving and kind and gentle and they sense that you are easy to hurt. They want to hurt to fulfil some sickness in them and they pick people whom they perceive as easy to hurt. You spirit and strength shines through because after all you've been through you are still tender and caring and still struggling to find your way. You've been so close to giving up, but you've fought on. You have dreams, K, dreams that you won't let die because you've been hurt. Your music, your love of injured animals, your passion. Oh I know it doesn't feel like anything shines right now. I know you feel lost and alone a lot of the time. It's at those times that you need to let people in, let Alec listen to you.

And I'll be perfectly honest with you--you could weigh 600 pounds and have two noses and no hair and 13 fingers and you would still be beautiful. The older I get, the more I know that a persons looks are superficial. If you were in an accident and it changed the look of your face and body, you would still be you. I know, I know....you're young, you believe that no one will come see or listen to a "fat" singer. That's your belief....mine is that when I'm listening to someone on the radio, I don't care a whit what they look like. I also know you have to be happy with yourself, with how you look. That's important. But you don't have to be thin to be happy--you want to. And that's ok, but don't judge the rest of you on your external looks. I think you are so beautiful....and I thought that before I saw the pictures of you!