I'm getting really worried.

I had my session with T on tuesday at 1:00. We were talking about my recent insurance problems. She told me that she was going to call my insurance company and figure stuff out. When the session was over, she said, "i have a client now, so i'll call the insurance company after that." I had work at 5:00, so she said she'd give me a call between 3 and 5 to "get it figured out by today." Depending on what the insurance comany said determined whether or not i would see her friday. She said we would set something up when we talked later.

Well, 3:00 came and went. then 4:00. Then at 4:45 when i left for work i called her cell phone and left a message. I went to work with my phone in my pocket, checking it multiple times. I got off work, still no call from T. I was confused. Little by little i got more and more upset, untill by 10:00 that night i was in full out tears and breaking down. I called her cell phone again at that time and left a message sobbing, saying that i was so upset she didn't call and it made me feel like i wasn't important enough to remember. Then i fell asleep.

Now we're at wednesday. I was depressed all day. I figured she'd be back in the office so maybe i'd get a call from her. Nothing. I went to work that night with my phone by my side. Still nothing. Going to bed wednesday night was the same as tuesday night, cried myself to sleep wondering where is T.

So now i'm at thursday. I've been so depresesd i slept right through my apt with my pdoc. i don't want to go anywhere or do anything. everytime my phone rings and its not her i die a little inside. I don't understand. She says "ill call you between 3 and 5" and then i don't hear from her for 2 days. and one of my messages i was obviously UPSET. I'm worried something happened. I know she works thursday nights, so i'm thinking if she doesn't call me on her way home from work (she returns her calls a lot at that time) then i'm going to call the office and leave a message. Remember, we don't have anything set up for friday yet. and i flat out told her that despite what the insurance company says i'll still probably come in on friday. she said ok and we agreed to set it up when we talked later.

And on top of all this, in the back of my mind, i have the end of tuesdays session in my head. When she walked me out i saw her next client. as i was leaving the waiting room, i heard T say, "Come in my dear, long time no see." and out of the corner of my eye i saw them hug. It ripped me apart, because she said i was one of the only clients she hugged. they obviously hadn't seen each other for a long time, but it still killed me. and she called her "my dear?" When she greets me she usually just says, "come on in." This should be the least of my worries considering i haven't heard from T, but i can't get it out of my head.

I'm really worried.