'maybe then people like the rapist won't come after you'...you don't think he came after you because you're "fat"? Why, when you don't cause trouble, do people hurt you? Who would the bully in school rather pick on--the shy, quiet kid or the boisterous, loud kid that will make noise and fight back and cause a scene? It's just like in the wild, honey. The lion goes after the lamb because it is gentle and meek. Please stop looking within to find a reason....YOU personally, K--was not the target, though it happened to you. It was about power. The horrible persons exerting their power, their power to hurt, to subdue, to damage.

Oh could give Connor a swift kick in the pants for saying you were putting on weight! SO WHAT??? Yes, I know I struggle with how I look. When I got pregnant with Tori I was 5'10" and 113 pounds. 113!!!! Then with Kaity I was 123 pounds. I loved it, thought it was great. It was too thin. Now I believe I am too heavy. I know I am. I have a stomach and thighs that are, to me, huge. You'll throw up when you hear my weight number--185. It makes me unhappy, but I'm still me. I still have the same sense of humor that I did at 113, I still like to read, I still can't sing, I still think Toby Keith is uber sexy! The only thing that changes is the mirror. Honey, be careful please.