thanks MINIME you made me smile on a day when tears come to my eyes but still dont make it out lol my sister hung up on me last night - she rang and hung up on me .... my fault - she was just looking for support - I have no supportive bones left in my body - they're all broken LOL shes been in a bad relationship for about 25 years and recently left him for her own life - and ive been supportive all that time - but she keeps going out with him - and wants me to say oh thats ok - and I have

Ive said he controlled you for 25 years so you will still have battles to fight - last night she wanted me to say that again - but i just said if you dont want to go ring him back while im on your other phone and cancel - she said she cant see him hurt (she has told me many bad things he has done) and I said stop talking S**T and call him - she said ok so im full of S* and hung up on me - she'd been drinking so she wasnt listening anyway - Im having trouble putting one foot in front of the other to carry on - ......... so im a terrible uncaring person - i know that - i know what i should have said - but it just came out - god i can be so stupid! I should change that to my middle name - if i had two the other one would be useless! - sorry for this .... its been really hard recently and i just want a break - a bit of peace - selfish!