i'm sorry about what happened at the T and your mom for you to be so upset. what i can say to you is that it took courage for you to 'own" up to the T about what's going on. in the long run it will help you because you took this big step and now "own" your therapy. you've broken through a barrier you put up so i feel like this is just the beginning of some real good stuff for you. try to be more gentle with yourself, andy. we benefit when we learn something even tho at the time it may be painful. you're heading in a very positive direction in therapy. it may be difficult for you to believe me just yet but there's going to be good changes in your life by your being so honest with the T.hugs to you and know we are always here for you. actually i'm quite proud of you for what you have done.