i don't know if it's better, but different. i don't have all day to think, though i still have a lot of it. but it's broken up some by classes, or reading for classes. unfortunately when i try to write for classes i can't concentrate. and the pain is different... it's not just dull achy hopelessness, but stinging loneliness in being around people but alone all day. and fear about that whole list of things, and now anxiety over therapy too.