I have been unable to sit up for the last couple of days due to falling again. i could not use my cane this time, my arm has started to go numb and when i was able to convince my husband i needed to go to the doctor they said that due to a ex-boyfriend my nerves, muscles and veins are pinched between my shoulder and my top rib. they want to remove my top rib. please he took so much already now this guy is going to get a rib bone. what about the other guys before him?
how much more can i live through? if it was not my ex boyfriend from 4 years ago it was other men before him, just one after another.
the nightmares are so bad right nowand they feel so real, like it is happening all over again.
over 15 years from the first rape, how much longer will the terror last? how much more can i last through?
even now my husband is mad due to me only getting 29/30 for an assignment this week. he is not even happy about the paper that i got all the points for.
at least i was able to get it out in here without problems.
i am sorry for ranting again. i seem to do that alot in here