I'm really struggling a lot at the moment guys. It's been hyper busy at work which is good because it means I'm not bored, but it also means that at the end of the day I'm on an addrenaline rush, and I know that the fastest thing to bring me down from the rush is a drink. I also know that I don't want to go back there. Life is so much better since I stopped. But I've got this insidious little voice in my head saying maybe I can have just one, and that maybe harm reduction isn't such a bad idea to try. No offense to anyone who believes in it, I just know it doesn't work for me. Probably doesn't help that I'm volunteering in a facility where harm reduction is the official policy so I wind up talking to active users who are just trying to cut back. I've also been letting my program slip for a few weeks - no excuse just busy.

So far I've resisted, but it's been hard. I'm trying to get back on track by going to my women's AA meeting this am, and I have my step study to look forward to tomorrow night.

Just had to share that I'm having a really hard time right now.

--splitimage