I sometimes feel the same way. So I can understand what you are going through! But I would like to think of depression as a first step towards spirituality. That's when we realize that we need God and remind ourselves first that God loves us the way we want to be loved. It's good that you found this website just as I did and just as so many people reading this thread did. All of us have come here for the same reason. We all need love and we will all share that love with each other. I hope this makes sense!

Love,
indrani.