How did I forget myself? Simple...A friend dropped by wanting me to fix something for him and he was in a hurry and I was getting flustered and he said here, this will speed you up. I never even blinked an eye. Just grabbed the straw and kept going. It wasn't till a couple more and he'd left that it stuck me that I was abstaining. That is what freaks me out. I didn't realize it had become that much of an autamatic action that I would do it wothout even realising it. I have finally recieved a few pics of my daughter that I am going to visit this summer and I am more determined than ever to go. She is not a real long way from the Gaza strip so I am concerned for her and I need to see her.She looks well and is being treated well. She is caucasion in a country that is 90% Muslem. She is Canadian. She assures me she is safe and happy but sees a lot of military. I want to go over ther, see that baby born safely [by the way it's a boy.] and get them back to Canada by this fall. I cannot be messin' around with drugs by spring!