Thanks madisgram I appreciate you responding

I do have a T but I'm not going back to her and I just set up an appt today for a T back at school who I'm going to on wed or thursday. I'm not really good at this whole therapist thing...when I was at the T at home I just didn't know what to say or how to express myself and she didn't really help me kinda just expected me to know what to say. So I'm nervous for my new T. Now I'm just going on and on but idk.

You are right I do have to love myself before anyone can love me. So that's what I have to start working on thankkss