I thought my ocd was getting better I hate this ocd so much that I wish I had the germ phobia again or something else other then this one! its awful right now I started checking again and spend most of my time on the internet making sure im not crazy but when I have my unwanted thinking and spikes and the doubt that plauges me I feel crazy!! I hate hate hate it its bringing me to tears I hate the fact that everytime I have an unwanted intrusive thought it causes anxiety an panic and endless worry for days! and I have to check on it everytime on everything I live in fear of everything! sorry for ranting it just im spiking! the only time I get relife is when I check and know im not alone and the only one with this sort of thing but its only breif! I charish the days when my anxiety from this isn't bad but then I think im a freak cause im not panicking its a stupid cycle!!!!!!