((((( JulieBean ))))))

I'm sorry you are going through some strong anxiety over this situation. I'm sure your mind is going in a lot of different directions and your feelings are from one end of the spectrum to the other.

Fighting our attraction feelings for someone, when we do know right from wrong, but that attraction is so darned strong is really hard. He certainly didn't make it any easier for you and I do have to say, you didn't make it easier for yourself either. I think this is probably a two way situation here.

While I do agree that NO is NO, if he was a decent individual, he would have backed off on the first NO and gone his merry way. I think what he did shows you he has no concern for anyone but himself....and that also tells me that attraction or no attraction, get the heck away from him and stay away. If he does this to you, he does it to others and believe me, it would not be a healthy or happy relationship that would be born of this.

I wonder if some of your anxiety is born of feeling badly for having those attraction feelings as strong as they are and almost giving in to them while being exclusive with your boyfriend? Maybe your mind is going through lots of "what if" scenarios too? I think that if you sit down and analyze your feelings and thoughts it may help bring you to a calmer place. That doesn't mean kicking yourself for anything...it just means coming to a conclusion about your actions/feelings/thoughts so that you can plan how you will act the next time you see him or are in this kind of situation again.

I hope you feel better soon......Take good care!


sabby