Hi Andy,
I was in some really painful therapy for two years. It was helpful therapy, and I was able to understand that the bad things that happened in my childhood were not my fault. However, those very painful things aren't what I talked about on the first visit. I talked about current problems and situations. My therapist was able to connect the dots. But I never had to "go back" and talk about the things that happened to me until I was ready. Once I was able to talk about the bad things, the grip it had on me lessened. It was a painful process.

And yes, there were times it hurt so bad that I wanted to die. Like something was piercing my soul and wouldn't stop.

But, Andy, you have to decide what you feel comfortable talking about in therapy right now. And you don't have to stop seeing your doctor because they share the same suite.

I am new here to this website, but I have, unfortunately, dealt with the pain for a long time.

Regards and you'll be in my thoughts.