hi split. its hard to be struggling like you are now.. i know you are very committed to your sobriety and the hard work you've put into it is really paying off for you.. i think that by remembering the reasons you decided to do this for yourself is very important now.. you can make it through the hard times i know, cause you have made it through so many already.. it reminds me of when i quit smoking... i had it licked, no worries, but, one day... well... someday i will quit, coffee too haha... but just stay on track as best you can, k? cheering for you