Hello I have a question, exactly how is ptsd diagnosed, I applied for a study on the effects of a pill and it's effectivness for people who have ptsd and was accepted but backed out..this was 12 yrs ago, now today I suffer from generalized anxiety so my G.P DR. has diagnosed and has said a diagnoses of ptsd is possible.
The study was a bunch of questions and was done by a psychologist but there was no therapy involved. I have had really no physical problems except denial for the past 10 yrs. My children were taken to a middle east country 13 yrs ago and have not seen them since, recently we have had contact by phone because they are now young adults. There was a time I could not think or talk about it without breaking down even now as I speak I can feel the lump in my throat...but I can swallow it now and talk about it. The effects are I can think about them now but I can't ever forget the time of when it first happened and how they must of felt. they were not close to my ex and always perferred me to him so i imagine how much they missed me and how it hurt them, the pain from that still makes me upset, I feel guilt and helpless that I was somehow at fault like trusting him to be alone with them and that's why it happened, I know my brain tells me I couldn't possibly have known this was going to happen, so how could I prevent it, but my heart tells me different that I could of somehow protected them better.
So now I had my first full blown panic attack a year ago which I thouhgt I was having a heart atttack I ended up in the E.R and since then I have high blood pressure taking meds for that and take ativan when needed, have heart palps, anxiety like I am going to lose my mind. I ahve not been the same since this all happend. Even my husband now tells me I can be a very cold person when it comes to his nieces and nephew it's like I won't let them get close to me so there for I am not a very good aunt.
I did ahve treatment when this all started I took Zoloft 50mg for 9 months and I was pretty good and now I only have my ativan but I think it's all starting up again that feeling of feeling terrified like I am going to lose my mind, I feel like I am really struggling to stay sane!