Thank you all for your supportive comments. I really really appreciate it.

I am having another issue with this. Our group of friends is completely, 100% intertwined. We have ALL of the same friends. We are both in music fraternities in school, and the two fraternities consider each other brothers and sisters. Well, one of my sisters is having a birthday party, and they are hosting it. I didn't tell her what happened but I said I might not be able to come because I was *fairly certain* the person something happened with was going to be there. She is damn near ready to cancel the party just because she wants me to be there for her birthday, and she was like, "Well uninvite the person, who is it?" and I wouldn't tell her, so she doesn't know that its him... but he texted me later (he has been apologizing profusely) and told me that he would rather not be there than have me miss a sister's birthday. He said he wouldn't drink and wouldn't even look at me wrongly.

Everyone wants me to be there. But the few people I have told have said I should stay away from him and not have any contact with him. Should I make an exception for her? I feel so so so so bad about the idea of missing her party. She wants me there SOOOO badly. D, my boyfriend, hasn't given me an opinion either way about whether or not I should go.

J, also, in his apologizing PROFUSELY has been saying that whenever I am ready, if ever, he wants to apologize to me in person and wants to salvage some form of our friendship.

Any thoughts? I have hardly eaten anything today because of the anxiety