((Christina))
Kudos on nearing the 6th month...

Jme, but I never considered myself a raging alcoholic. I seldom missed work, etc.. I appeared to function well.
Appearances are deceiving...everything in my life got about one fourth of my attention. Not because I was hungover, but because I just didn't give a damn. It was hindsight showing me that I was "not all there" in many ways.

Honestly? When I found myself asking/saying these type of things I needed to look at why I was trying to give myself a reason to drink...

In no way am I implying this is what you are doing, I'm just sharing some of the things I encountered.

AA meetings may not be for everyone--but the principals are.
It's easy to incorporate them into your daily life. It released a lot of wariness and some anger in me.

I've also got an addictive personality. Drugs and alcoholic.
The old but true saying, "I know I have another drink in me. I may not have another recovery in me." This is very true of/for me.
My detox was a nightmare and I will do whatever is necessary not to repeat it.
My sobriety is something I fiercely protect. Period.

Whatever you decide, my very best wishes on coming to know the beauty and fun of being sober.
One day at a time. Oh, but I hated those words at first!
I didn't realize how much better they would make me feel.
It was not a race to solve them...

Cap