Hey folks,

Has anyone here ever had problems with sex/porn addiction? I have a lot of things I have done that I regret in my life. These things cause me a lot of pain. At times I was very compulsive with sex/porn.

On a brighter note, my spouse is very understanding and has forgiven me for these moments of bad judgement and is even partnering with me to help me stay clean from it by making sure I have accountability software on my computers and through very open communication about our feelings. She is incredible.

I have been free of behaviors like this for a while, and I never want to go back. I am carrying a lot of guilt about the past though. It is very painful and causing me to be very depressed and regretful.

I read the information on this site about sex addiction, and the talk about having a neglectful childhood or an emotionally unavailable mother. I had nothing like this in my childhood. My parents have always been amazing. They had no addictions themselves, and my relationship to this day with my parents is that they are like my best friends. So I guess I don't understand, "Why me?" Is it the fact I have OCD, and that made me be more compulsive with my behavior? Also, I have no problems with intimacy with my wife. I don't have problems with relationships. My problems basically seem to be that I was thinking with the wrong head and giving into temptation too easily.

I'd be interested to hear anyone's thoughts on this. I want to put this all behind me. I HATE this part of myself.

Peace!