Hi,

Seems the more I look into PTSD and different situations and others stories for me I guess I am realizing that I 'see' something so different in so many situations copared to those I know who do not have PTSD.

For an example, Yesterday as I drove an hour trip home from my Mothers on a rual State Road before even dark I came to a point where at times My OCD symptoms get to the point I feel the need to 'write down' just about everything that comes to mind with time and date....

So to get to my point of the altered thoughts (I think) part of the PTSD, I came to a secluded four way stop with no cars behind me and in an attempt to 'document a thought with my clipboard and pen' impulsivly, I turned on my four way hazard lights, even though daylight.

As I recall I was writing my car stopped facing to the South and noticed a truck had stopped just past the light going west.

Anyway, this average looking man was walking towards my car as I impulsivly was writing something down.

When I could see this man approach half way between his vehicle and mine, in his hand all I could make out a black object. Without even thinking twice in my mind I thought to myself "is that a piece he has in his hand?" Doors already locked of course, I realized it was a cell phone, only I had my 'PLAN' of escape already in mind.

So, turns out that this man was in reality someone who thought I was having car trouble and a good samaritan and asked me if everything was ok? I responded with "Yes, Thank You I just needed to write down a few things" and then to my surprise there was a vehicle stopped behind me and he flagged them around me. Went back to his vehicle.

Mixed feelings I had of my thinking, and how this person wanted nothing more to help me if I needed help, yet I do not guess I understand that his or many persons with good intentions, I only initially see as threats or possible harm to me

I am now aware of this thinking and thoughts and just as someone may suggest I in another situation sit in a 'Better Seat' While I try to tell them I dont sit with my back to the entrance or the say dining room of a restruarnt if I do make my way into a dining room.....istead of drive-thru park and eat.

Are these some normal things which occur along with PTSD? like my guard always up prepared where I am at in public seating with an exit plan before even sitting down?

Thanks for listening and for support.