[quote=JulieBean;915118]I sorta see everyone's point.

I didn't see him coming with it hanging out because the room was completely dark besides the outside streetlamps. I was fighting my own urge to give in, we have always had a mutual and explosive chemistry, and the whole time he said, "I did it for you" so not only was I battling with my own feelings, I was battling a sort of feeling of obligation toward him. And I was still mad and disgusted by my boyfriend, and that is why I didn't call for him or go to him. But I did hold up my "no" for the entire thing, and from the complete get go.

This is what I want to change! Your obligation is to yourself FIRST. Not to the person hosting the party, not to this boy or any other. Perhaps I am being insensitive, but you need to take something away from this experience. That compromising yourself to please someone else is never healthy.

It's not about placing blame, it's about learning to avoid this situation in the future if it is possible. If the situation was not avoidable what to do to protect yourself.

About the party, if you feel at all uncomfortable about it the answer is simple don't go.