Okay, so, I've had further thoughts and growth in the area of forgiveness. It doesn't matter if I'm actively involved with the ppl I wish to forgive. It's an internal process displayed in action. It's a continual process. In acknowledging the bad memories and forgiving the ppl involved, I am then free to wish them well, to pray for blessings for them. I ask God to forgive them just as He has forgiven me. Where is it that we can say that we've never hurt another, even very badly. Therefore I can relate to my transgressor and forgive them just as I have forgiven myself. Allow them to save face in the light of their wrong doing. It following this process I am free to be healed, become a more positive and uplifting person and able to unload some of my baggage, freeing myself to move forward to the next issue...healthier and stronger to tackle that next issue. Life is about growing, progressing, transforming. I cannot do that if I become stagnant and continue the same unhealthy habits, lifestyle and thoughts. I'm also able to have more faith in ppl in general. To not internalize others wrong doing toward me. And thereby set a good example for others to grow and learn too. When it comes time for me to die...I want the world to be a better place for my having been here. That comes in supporting others, encouraging others, setting a good example for others, forgiving others and serving our fellow man. I truly believe this and it makes me feel good inside. Life is about exploration, exploration of the inner self and the outer self. TgrsPurr.