I'm in my first year of university right now. I did actually start in 2003, but I had to withdraw because of my severe depression. I restarted last September, and unfortunately I've had problems with depression more or less from the beginning, and it has gradually got worse. My attendance is really quite low, and I skipped all of my classes today too. Some of my classes I haven;t attended since January; some, before that . At the moment, my motivation is really in the pits. I'm so far behind in my work it's unbelievable (uncompleted coursework since November) but what's worse, I don't have the motivation to even pick up my pen to do the easy work , never mind write 2000-word essays. I've told my personal tutor ( a kind of teacher we have who we go to about problems with work) about my depression, since he also handled the paperwork when I withdrew last year, but I'm reluctant to tell him the full extent of how I'm doing, and besides, I haven't seen him since before Christmas. talking to people in authority like him scares me... so I don't. it's only in the past few weeks that I have been finally considering seeing a psychiatrist for meds. I've been seeing both my dr and the university counsellor since November. I'm seeing the psychiatrist today. I hope it goes ok. Basically I am being overwhelmed with all this stuff. My counsellor warned me from the beginning that she was afraid this would happen, but I didn't have the motivation to complete work then either. Of course, it probably would help me if I stopped coming to this site so much. But even when I'm not here, and I'm bored, I don't start my work. Though I probably should do. If I could, I would withdraw from university again and take a year out somewhere, somewhere relaxing - maybe New Zealand, lol. But of course I can't afford it and I would never be allowed to do it. So all I am left with are fantasies and piles of work...

Any tips? Any advice? Thanks for any replies.