Thanks everyone for the suggestions, encouragements, words of wisdom and more. My therapist and I have had a very good relationship for many years now it is just that when things are not going well I freeze up to anyone. I will try harder.

]Hello, I am new to this site but I feel like I can relate to a lot of what you wrote about. I am sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time. For a long time I had a very hard time talking in therapy, it's hard to open up to a stranger and tell them all about yourself, I am glad that I stuck with therapy though because it has helped me a lot. I would encourage you to stay in therapy however I agree with madisgram that maybe finding a new therapist would help you, I started out seeing a different therapist from the one I see now and I felt like I could never talk to her and that my sessions with her were not helping at all or just making things worse, once I started seeing my new therapist it still took some time to open up to her but right from the beginning I felt a lot better with her then I had with my last T and in the long run she really helped me a lot. My thoughts are with you and I sincerely hope you are able to find some peace. Don't give up, we are here for you![/quote]