Thanks for the advice!! Both of you make complete sense.. I know I need to make a clean break.. I just CANT. It's like an addiction. I don't know how to stop. I actually have tried turning my phone off so that I'm not tempted to pick it up and text but I do text with other friends as well and I hate to cut them off too.
I also have acted this way with previous bf's.. so I'm sure the problem is me. My relationships are usually fine for the first month or so, but then I start acting this way and then they dump me.
mystry- as for the comment where you said about the only way he'd want me is when drunk. Well, the way I saw that situation is that those are his true feelings and they slipped out when drunk. From my understanding, when people are drunk, they dont create feelings. They may have thoughts/feelings that they don't want to express but then the alcohol brings it out. I could be completley wrong though condsidering I'm obviously not seeing clearly lol. I also don't know if I mentioned in my extremely long post, but he did at one point (very shortly after the drunk incident) admit that he has feelings, but that he had only been telling me he didnt have feelings bc he didnt want to get my hopes up. That's why I think if I smarten up with this clingyness that we can have a chance to work stuff out again.