Thank you all for replying, it has certainly helped a lot to see the various opinions and motivations about what I should do and such. I have come to the decision, especially in light of Pachyderm's comment, to go ahead and seek treatment even if that means a diagnosis. I'll let the chips fall where they may and I'll trust God no matter the sufferings I go through.

What also prompted me is coming to the realization that all these symptoms thrown together has given me the equivalent of emotional burns across my whole being. Even the slightest touch feels like agony. It could be someone happy to see me or it could be an off handed remark but I just hurts so much because of the intensity of reaction [or in some cases a completely inappropriate response]. I definitely need help because I don't want to feel this way anymore.

So I've resolved to recontact the doctor I went to for depression and explain the situation. I think I can trust him to help me out in some way.

As for some of your recommendations, they have all helped a lot in dealing with the various problems. The "grounding" Repunzal recommended helps me from "spacing out" when the emptiness hurts too much.

I can safely say though that my religious attitudes are neither a cause of or response to my condition. One thing I would offer though is that Christianity doesn't teach an escapist mindset or a way to avoid social problems. It does instead, if seen from a very traditional view, offer a way to turn suffering, pain, and all the other tiny defeats and failures of this condition and turn them into victories. I can only say its the mystery of the cross.

Anyways: Thank you all tremendously for your advice and support, it has done wonders to help me pull myself into getting help.