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Old Jan 11, 2009, 10:22 PM
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I started back at school today and just want to disappear. I feel so out of place here and so alone. I wonder why I can't be like everyone I know here who loves college and couldn't wait to come back.
I think I mentioned this in my introduction, my roommate is a cutter and talks about it constantly, she shows me her cuts and talks about how she did them. It's very triggering for me to be around her and I have cut several times since school started in August. I think it is not helpful for either of us if we live together, I have talked to the housing people but they said there is not enough room for anyone to move. I feel so sad and alone and I don't want to be here, I want to be happy but I don't know what to do. I feel so inferior to everyone here. I just want to sit in my room and cry. I hate myself so much. it's getting so frustrating.