pdoc didnt call today. the wait for his call was driving me crazy, so i finally called and left a voicemail. he will hopefully call me back tomorrow.

thank you both so much for your support. i'm going to spend tonight writing down the things i need to say to him and ask, because it's been a month since i've seen him last and so many things have changed.

cc - my T said that to me the last time i saw him! anticipatory anxiety is worse... thank you for saying that. it makes me feel more in control.

cybermember - thank you for the hugs. i will probably see him this week, so i guess i can take all the time in the world, lol.

i am still in 2 mind about all of this. one of my big fears is that i will tell him everything and he will think i'm crazy (lol!!) because i am overreacting to something completely normal. or he'll think i'm crazy because i'm hallucinating. hmmm... catch 22 .