Sqrl, you make a very good point about perception and distortion whether the perceiver or the precievee (is that a word? or did I make another one up?). I agree that in my illness or rather through my illness perception of the truth, reality or intention can go right out the window. This has caused many a problem with ppl in my life, even the store clerk.

But that doesn't make it any less real to me at that point. I may come to my senses after the fact, then go make amends or clarify things because that then becomes my truth of the situation. Maybe I'm off base with this. I don't know. I have to think about that some more. I just know that I need some certainty in my life...I'm just that kind of person that some things I know that I know that I know. I need the security of that. Not in everything, just in some things. TgrsPurr. xo