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Originally Posted by ThePainNeverDies
What do I say to Alec though? I can't just blurt it out, surely.. I mean, I'm tempted to start off by saying that I've been thinking about things in a lot more depth more recently and started actually thining about how I really feel about them and so on and so forth.. But I know I'll just chicken out.. this is the first time I'll have ever spoken about it and I'm terrified.. I'm not entirely sure how I feel about ym Dad comitting suicide and about my Mum being an alcoholic.. I mean.. We went through this last week and he said "but what did you do to cause that?" and i was like idk.. and he said "if anything, you were a tiny, tiny proportion of your Mum becoming an alcoholic and your dad comitting suicide.." then I said that I guessed the main reason Mum became an alcoholic was because of Dad comitting suicide and the main reason for Dad comitting suicide was because him and Mum split up  |
Yep, sometimes just blulrting is the best way, that way you don't have time to talk yourself out of it. Sometimes going slow is the best way. Now, I do have to disagree on what he said about that you may have had a tiny, tiny part in your mom and dad's situation. YOU HAD NO PART. It was how they chose/knew to cope with life that caused it. Yes, you were in their life---their choice not yours. They chose to handle it they way did--you had no no no part in it. That is a 100% normal reaction--wondering what you did to cause it. The part you have to reach is belief that the answer to that question is not a blessed thing!
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