He did then say that I'd done nothing wrong. That I could, for now believe that I could have been (and note the could!!) a tiny, tiny part in their choices, but that I need to realise that I was no part in it..

God, 10 minutes to go.. I need to meet Connor first.. He'll pick up on it, but there's nothing he can do to be honest.. Dammit!

i just hope it goes ok, I just hope that he doesn't notice my chewed nails and panicky look on my face and other such obvious giveaways as to how I'm really feeling..

will update you when I get home.. Thanks for the advice..