Thank you so much DocJohn. The internet is a blessing and sites like these are great blessings to have. When everybody benefits the world benefit,our kids would definitely benefit.
I'd give anything to be a healthy parent though at times it's just way off my control. I know it will get better, especially with help. I pray to be on track with my spiritual path but sometimes I get totally lost like now. You give me hope again.
To be a healthy parent, I know I need to be healthy in all ways. I need to work on myself, I need to connect to a good source of help and I need an outlet, I need a place where I feel save enough to dig out the dirt I have inside, a place to learn healthy way of being.
Thank you so much from the depth of my heart.
p.s. Looking forward to posting more.