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Ok. I was on methanphetmine for 5 years. 2 of them was off and on the last 3 were pretty constant everyday use with breaks once or twice a week to sleep and eat. I have been compleatly clean off of it for almost 6 years. I had 2 relapses in the past 8 years. The last one being 5 years ago. My worry is that I have lingering affects from smoking it so much. I'm talkin $200 a day when I was using the most. The past 2 years for some reason I have been feeling "unreal" I guess you could call it. Like detached from people. Dreamlike. I don't know how to describe this feeling really. All I know is sometimes I feel like I have been on a 4 day bender and just ran out of dope. I feel paraniod and paniky and very short nerved. Things just get on my nerves alot easier. I don't know if the prolonged use of meth has caused some sort of brain damage or just caused a mental illness. I tried to talk to my new doctor about it but he was hurried and would'nt even give me a referral to a psych or a gyno. I was seriously pissed. Now I have to wait till the first of February so I can change my primary care physison. That means more of not haveing the treatment I need or meds I need. I am worried that the meth use may have caused somthing worse than a mental illness. Anyone else have this problem?
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Dx: PTSD, Panic Disorder, Obsessive Personality Disorder.
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