I have also fallen for gay guys. It really sucks. At least he told you-I take it he knew how you felt about him if you were dating for so many years. That was very unfair of him. Some gay guys REALLY don't realize they're gay until years into hetero relationships. Not saying it's OK, just that it does happen. I'd listen to the other poster-use this as a learning experience about yourself. Get to know what you do&don't want&what your expectations are&don't be afraid to state them up front the next time you date someone. There are a lot of us out here that can tell you what we don't like, but not about what we do like until something negative happens to us&we're hurt. You will find someone who is meant just for you-it takes time, which is hard, but necessary. I'm 40&thought I knew what I wanted&thought that I had it&have now realized that I don't know what I want&know that I don't have what I thought I did. You'll have better luck in the future. Remember that you shouldn't take just whatever comes your way-pick what you want&don't stop looking until you find it.
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I am a 39 year old female that is diagnosed with bipolar disorder,anxiety disorder and post traumatic stress syndome. I'm on disability and often have no one to talk to when I'm not feeling so good. So please contact me if you'd like to talk or share or vent. I'm listening!