manic for like a week.
friday it was uncontainable....
zyprexa wouldnt slow it down....
and the answer was right in front of her.
a stop sign that filled the viual field as the pills went down. ....
was driving and kept getting lost cuz the mind races too fast.
too fast to remember what the exit was....
so i quit all my meds.
and i regret some stupid things i did saturday nite.
i am an embarrassment to myself.
the things she does to my body, like its hers to destroy!!
and im numb today.
i have a dr. appointment on tuesday.
with my regular doc, for mre std tests thaanks to my own recklessness, and with a psychiatrist... for meds.
i might not go to the second.
i will likely be detained in the condition i present myself in.