they get in my way, they distract me... ill be fine talking to someone and there goes a shadow,, walking by and i look and follow its path with my eyes like a cat who ate too much catnip....
and the person looks at me kinda like , noticing that something distracted me.
and they usually shrug it off as if im just being shy or coy cuz they think i look so cute or something, or that im playing "dumb blonde"

the red eyed shadow is the one that calls my name. lately it sounds more like a hiss.
an airy raspy voice saying jennifer, ever so quiet so nobody else will hear... or maybe she thinks i cant hear and shes toying with me.

its not in me.
its outside