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Jan 13, 2009, 08:46 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2008
Location: east of the sun, west of the moon
Posts: 2,259
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thank you mc, we appreciate your kindness and understand. the last time he went for a week in october we did not eat one real meal in a week unless you can a hot dog and a bun. we did not get out of our chair or sleep in bed or go anywhere at all and that was scary to me because i realized finally that i am the host. nobody thought to tell me that and i really didn't know and so nobody was leading anything. gee it was soo dysfunctional, grrr. i'm still not sure what a host does anyway???!!! i think of parties and game shows and neither one of them will help with my systems of alts. parties make me want to run away or get sick and stay home. i just want to be safe and not quite so miserable. and i do want to keep everyone inside safe and fed and protected. we used to be hostile to our insiders until we finally realized what all they had to done to keep us alive in childhood. they are a bunch of little heroes. but we still scare each other. they hate grown ups and now i am one and i'm afraid of kids that cry. who would believe i raised two daughters who are actually functional in the real world....so far.
thank you for all your support!!!! "i'll be back" (just be glad i don't have a schwarzenegger part or you'd be scared now)! 
will be back to talk. bye bye frum pixies too. an leslie
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