I agree with DE that we ought not use our illness - bp as a reason to excuse our behavior, but instead to take responsibilty for our actions, verbal or otherwise. But perception CAN BE distorted through the eyes of cycling. A certain amount of reality can be losst, hope can be lost, pain...real or imagined...overwhelms the mind and emotions causing confusion and extreme anxiety that results in panic or lashing out. So, in that light, perception is the culprit.
I still need to think about this some more. Keep up the input folks, I'm liking this. TgrsPurr. xo