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Dear leslie and pixies,
it is SO difficult to know when/who the host is, only to find out it is you. Yahna knows she is the host, but she is so tired and worn out by dealing with us all that she frequently takes breaks inside. When she is out, she is like a gangbuster of a lady, getting things done and working her heart out in the house. She sifts through things, throws things away we don't need, and sets up her bedroom how she wants it. We are amazed at her strength and resiliency at those times. At other times she wants nothing to do with us, and will not allow us to help her protect herself. She sometimes sees us as an inconvenience and not as helpers. We wish she would listen to us, hear how we helped her survive all these years.
our wish for you right now is that you will find rest being yourself. It is the most difficult place in the world, and we empathize with your pain. If we can be of assistance, please don't hesitate to ask. We think you are really brave to figure out that you are the host. That is a very tough job. Kudos to you!!!
Beth of Jewels
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