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Originally Posted by Rainbowzz
I also realized that some part of me has this indignant little voice who doesnt WANT to stop. Thats the voice that wants to be able to use codeine for energy and motivation and that little bit of euphoria. That voice says things like "Quit? Why? I dont want to. You Cant Make Me.nah Nah Nah boo boo." And it sounds like a childish eight year old who wont put away the toys..lol if that makes sense.
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Makes all the sense in the world to an addict. That's me...
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My disease had only one goal,,,to kill me and fool with me along the way.
He whispered such things to me all the time, still does, but today I treat him like the siren he is, with respectfull distaste. I know of his power and take my medicine. Nearly 20 years sober and I seldom miss a meeting.
I only wish you well Rainbow...you are me and I am you....in many ways.
With Care,
Lenny