For whatever reason its very hard for me to ask for time off, especially when its to see a therapist. then I worry my boss will think I'm crazy or something or really that I just don't deserve to be off. so I went today and sat in the waiting room for 40 mins, slowly going crazy wondering if I came on the right day or whatever and then I finally found my card and my appt was at 3 and not 3:30. I realized this at 4. so now I can't go back for a week and a half and of course the only appt she has is at noon. why does everything have to be so hard???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why can't I remember anything! I wonder sometimes how much longer I can keep this up. My husband is not very supportive, especially since I can't even be intimate with him anymore (because of fear and panic at yet another "memory" I can't really remember). I don't know what to do really. Just feeling very panicky and worthless and alone.