the reason why i asked if you know the real reasons why you do what you do, is because if you do, you are at a greater advantage than lots of peeps coz some cant even pinpoint why they do what they do. even if you dont know why you do what you do, at least youve admitted youre doing it. the thing that everyone forgets is that people arent robots, and it doesnt mean you are a complete and utter failure if you cant achieve quite what you want to, but i think you have achieved a lot, because your nurse is saying that shes observed that you are doing better than you were, and surely, you should be glad that you are getting an acknowledgement of credit where its due to you?