ive writtn a couple more answers in your other threads. yes i do know what you mean, and i think you will know what i mean if you read my other responses. i did put about goals they set, professionals, and sometimes, if they are too hard to attain, if you chop the goal into chunks and work on your own chunk at a time, then sometimes the end product is what they are striving for. sometimes they will even give themselves a pat on the back thinking they done it all themselves, but they havent, coz youve done it.

only you know what you are thinking, and it has become draining to me in this way, that i will 'tell' on my own conflicting thoughts. i feel like crap when i do it, but i have to, i have to so that maybe the therapist or whoever may then see that as it is happening it is while i am saying one thing to their face but thinking all these other things all at the same time. i feel like im grassing or dobbing my own self in but i have to.