probably things in your life have made you think you are not worhtwhile or that you should put the needs of others above your own - but you are worthwhile and your needs need to be met just the same as anyone elses

Im sorry things got messed up with T, I know its hard but you can get through this - talk to us - we'll listen the forgetting things - its a pain - I have reminders on my phone now and on a (dont laugh) a whiteboard that is on the wall by my front door - because I cant keep track of what day it is at the moment let alone what time LOL

the more stressed you are the harder it is to remember these things - try not to be so hard on yourself - unfortuantely just like our T's and everyone else her you are only human ! try to give yourself a break - I hope the week and a half flies by for you P7